Monday, June 29th, 2009
Update on me…
I know I have been MIA for a couple of weeks, but a lot has gone on, so let me fill you in…
As my last post shows, I thought I had ovulated on CD16 or CD17, since the OPK came up dark, and then got lighter. My PCOS got the last laugh, however, when on CD23, Saturday, 6/20/09, I saw major spotting. At first, I told myself, “It’s just spotting. Maybe it’s not a period.” Deep down inside, though, I knew it was my period. As the day went on, it just got heavier and I broke down in the bathroom crying. Poor DH didn’t even know what happened with me…he just laid with me on the bed and listened to me cry. I was crushed that I didn’t even make it to CD28, with my last pill of Prometrium. I had a 24 day cycle. My first round couldn’t even be “normal,” or “textbook.”
DH and I decide I need to call the doctor on Monday and make sure what I experienced is normal. My doctor’s office is so unbelievably unkempt and confused. I know that I need to switch to an RE/specialist, and that will be our next step after this month and next month. I called and asked to have my doctor call me back, and I was told she wasn’t working (it was a Monday). She doesn’t work on Friday’s, too, so I simply sighed and asked the operator to have any doctor or nurse practitioner call me back. I finally get a call back around 3pm, and the woman on the other end was very rude. She didn’t identify herself (as in, “Hi, Rebecca, this is doctor so-and-so”) and said, “So you wanted a call?” I explain my situation, and it was a ton of awkward silences and her going over my chart to understand what my cycle consisted of (Provera, Clomid, Prometrium). She tells me, “Are you confused? I think you are taking Provera, not Prometrium right now.” I explain to her that I am in the 2WW, and I am taking Prometrium for a low progesterone count. Then, she says to me, “Yeah, bleeding right now can happen.” More awkward silence…and then she simply says, “Hopefully you’ll get pregnant next time…” and says her goodbye.
Um, yeah. She is calling me back to give me reassurance on this situation, and that is what she has to say? I may as well have posted on an internet forum and asked for advice…at least it would be more solid, with women who have been there and done that. So, needless to say, I was annoyed that she sounded so annoyed that she had to call me back. And, how flipping rude is it to say “Hopefully you’ll get pregnant next time…” Like, lady, we all hope and pray that Clomid is our miracle drug, but that is not the way it works…
DH and I found a couple of fertility centers near where we live, and this one really speaks to me via their website. They have a huge team that consists of an RE, therapists, endocrinologists, ultrasound techs, etc, and it just seems like a very knowledgeable place to go. DH and I feel we should stick out this round and next round, since if this round doesn’t work, I have to go in for a CD12 ultrasound next time. At that point, I feel I will either be taking a break and letting my body detox, or moving on to an RE. I still have time to decide what I want to do in the mean time.
I started my second round of Clomid on 6/23/09, and ended on Saturday. It felt very strange having to take another round of pills so quickly…it was literally 3 weeks total. I also dreaded it because DH and I took my niece to the Yankees vs Braves game in Atlanta on Thursday/Friday, and it was not what I wanted to be on while away. It was already sweltering outside at the game, but to have the hot flashes and lightheadedness associated with my Clomid…it was very unpleasant. Also, I have still been having this jittery feeling. Some days, it feels better than others, but I cannot place why I feel this. Some have suggested that it is the crazy high levels of estrogen my body is putting out. I have also read that when your estrogen levels change, your body absorbs a different amount of Synthroid, which I happen to be on. I am concerned over having very textbook hyperthyroid symptoms, and I am thinking I should go in for a blood test to measure my TSH, and see if I am being kicked into hyperthyroid. I am nervous, though, if it is not that…then what is causing this feeling? I also have the stereotypical symptoms of hyperthyroid…increased appetite, upset stomach, racing heart, insomnia, anxious, “jittery” feeling. The racing heart and insomnia really freaks me out because at times I will be laying in bed, completely exhausted and ready to conk out, but my heart will be thumping in my chest. When I take my blood pressure (we have an at home monitor), it is perfect, every time, though once in awhile my pulse is slightly high.
It is very strange, and I just want this jittery feeling to QUIT already. If it is the Clomid, I am not sure I can do any more rounds of it, and would rather move on. If it’s my body being kicked into hyperthyroid, I would think that it would start to subside, as I’ve been cutting my pills in half for about a week now, to decrease my dosage and see if I notice a difference. What’s a girl to do?
June 30th, 2009 at 11:04 AM
Jessi Wallace said:
((hugs from one cyster to another)) Maybe before going to an RE, you can find an OB who is actually knowledgable about PCOS. Before I found my current doc, I was seeing a GYN who was stuck-up and so was her entire staff. Now, I am seeing an OB in a smaller town who happens to have a lot of knowledge of PCOS and she once worked in an RE’s office. She has served as my RE, but insurance covers everything she does because she bills as an OB. It works greatly in my favor. I’m sorry your cycle was so short… I haven’t had that problem yet. Mine get too long. I hope you get answers… real answers. ((hugs again))